Well... I have a job

This morning I was awoken by Lee Brice singing about how he was "Hard to Love." Turns out he wasn't actually there and it was my phone going off. The man I interviewed with last week where I basically told him I was a hopeless case and didn't know what I wanted in life decided he either 1) really liked my honesty or 2) took pity on me. Either way, I'M EMPLOYED!!!!

Now, it's only part time at the moment. I mean let's face it, no one is hiring accountants right now, a girl needs money so a filler job will have to do. But, it's a job!

I go in on Friday for orientation and start on Tuesday. It should be interesting to see how it goes. I'm excited, and really not in the least bit nervous. Surprisingly.

But, I have a job!!!!

I'll leave you with this video so you can hear what it was that I woke up to this morning.

The future is an unknown place

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

That question has been asked to me multiple times during my interviews and finally yesterday I gave the man the most honest and perfect answer ever and here it is:

You know, I'm not entirely sure. If you would have asked me that 5 months ago I would have told you in an office building working at my desk going through the financials of a business and helping them keep their books perfectly. However, upon graduation and now 5 months to think about it, I don't know where I want to be. I have this degree and I don't know exactly how it is that I want to use it because no one will give me a chance to use it.

He looked at me for a minute and then he did the weirdest thing; he agreed. He said we put so much emphasis on going to college so that we can get better and improve our lives, but we also entrust the decision of what we want to do for the rest of forever with our still teenaged self. He had two degrees and is now working in a field that has nothing to do with them. Funny how that works out?

I'm not saying I am questioning the degree I obtained, I'm more reflecting on what it is I really see myself doing.

I've always heard to not plan out your life too much because it can change in an instant, and until just recently I never really believed that.


Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Me? I just want to be happy.

Big girl world is busy

Being busy with big girl stuff has made me forget to take a breather and enjoy the little things in life. I've had weddings to attend, interviews to go on, and applications to send out. And with my alma mater starting back up with classes today, I've got nothing but reminders of how I'm no longer care free. This is where still living in a college town has it's down sides. You are constantly reminded of feeling old for being finished with school, but then also feeling like a loser for not having a job.

I went on an interview just yesterday, and I hope it works out. I interviewed with people who were maybe 6 years older than myself, so right then I knew I would feel better about working there. Something about working with people closer to my age just makes me more confident. The interview went okay, I know it could have gone better. And it certainly could have gone worse. In the next few days they will be making their decision and I will be finding out if I can finally say I am an employed college graduate or not. Let's all keep our fingers crossed that good news comes my way soon.

This weekend I have another wedding to attend. That's two weekends back to back. This one is for my 18 year old cousin. Yes, you read correctly 18. She just graduated high school in May. I'm going because it will be fun to hear all of the comments my aunt has to say about the wedding. She called me this week and told me she expects a wedding invitation within the next year. Let's slow down there ma'am, I don't need another timeline added to my life.

I have this feeling that if I just get a job my life will be better. And I'm sure it will. If I can just find a job to keep my busy and give me money so that I'm not constantly worried I will be great. I will feel like I have accomplished something and have proven all of my professors, who told me I wouldn't succeed, wrong. I just need that, for me.

Toddlers and Tiaras: scary kids make great costumes

For the past few years our country has been introduced to a new and exciting lifestyle that has some cringing in horror while others (like myself) are embracing the lifestyle if only for the entertainment value. We have been given a glimpse into this world that no one can fully understand unless you are in the middle of this mystical glitter filled world. Know what I'm talking about yet?

That's right, Toddlers & Tiaras. Every Wednesday night people all across the United States tune in to see what random theme these pageant directors can come up with and what high school gymnasium they can rent out to put these "glitz" pageants on. Has anyone ever noticed that? For these pageant moms (and some dads) spending all this money to put their wonderful princesses in a pageant you'd think their thousands of dollars could help with decorations or a crown that doesn't look as though it was made for a toy store. Maybe I'm too judgmental, but come on.

Though, what takes the cake in this whole show are those darling little angels we like to call the participants. These young girls are thrown into a world where they are painted up with make up, given fake teeth, and squeezed into dresses that sometimes cost more than my rent for half a year. All the while they are allowed to practically run their households. A five year old child running a home telling her mom she's stupid all the while throwing those tantrums until her mother caves giving her all the pixy sticks she can eat.

I think I watch this show because I am so fascinated by how the family dynamic works. These parents say they love their children but everything they seem to be doing is showing they don't really care about their daughter's futures. I don't have anything against extra curricular activities, I do however have a problem with telling your daughter she must look one way in order to be considered pretty. And starting at such a young age means you're putting that into their minds when they are just starting to figure out the world around them. Even worse is how these parents refuse to discipline their daughters even in the least. In my mother's words "No one is going to want to play with them because they're such bitches." And I agree, I'm all for telling your kids they are perfect and wonderful, everyone should do this, however when you give them the ideal that they can do no wrong and walk all over adults and that outward beauty is the only thing that matters, that's a problem.

I know if I was a kid and one of these girls started acting better than me and just being rude, I'd never be her friend. The sad reality is, where these mothers think they are helping their children they are doing far from it. I can't wait for the episode Toddlers & Tiaras: Ten Years Later where these girls are alone with no true friends and thinking they own the world or they're knocked up and still screaming at their mothers. 

I don't appreciate the mothers of the show but I still watch. It's like the car wreck you can't look away from. And this is why I will be dressing as one of these participants for Halloween. If anything, it'll be a great laugh and if someone gets mean, I can just call them stupid and cry until they give me some alcohol.